Emotions can't be healed. That's why you've spent so long trying. Try this:
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The Essence Of Non-Duality: Ego, Love, Awareness, Death & Happiness | Rupert Spira
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Guided Meditation and Energy Clearing to Let Go of the Past and Negative Emotions | Mindful Movement
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If You Leave Thoughts Alone, They’ll Leave You Alone
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Healing, feeling and accepting your emotions won't work. Do this instead.
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Dr Joe Dispenza: You MUST Do This Before 10am!
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How to Wake Up from an Unhappy Life with Eckhart Tolle
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Once you see this, the objective world disappears.
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